Queen of Hearts

So i may have mentioned that I was nice enough to be in my friend's photoshoot for her AS photography (a Miss Georgi Meckiffe) well she was wondefull enough to put the best ones on facebook.  Although theres only two, they are pretty amazing and fantastical due to her amazing editing and how she was telling me exactly what to do. 

I congratulate you Missy and your predicted A. :)

I look like a creepy clown but in a good way. Not quite Kate Moss and Agyness Deyn yet haha. The 2 hours were rather fun though!!

Again scary times and I'm magically ginger!! I do like though and i hope you appreciate being able to have a gander at them too :) 

Love you George, what would i do without you 

xxx

Some nights just call for a good listen to some old school pikey music from back in the day...

Babycakes by 3 of a Kind came on in my car. I must say my singing/rapping was pretty epic!
Also i would like to THANK Justin Bieber, your stupid song Baby has been stuck in my head for about 2 weeks now. Thanks alot you canadian midget. I thought downloading it and listening to it may help. It didnt.

Dont judge me. Still totally totally not pikey enough to go to Reading.
Blink 182 will be the highlight of my life!!!


Also my manager has not taken my resignation well.  No confirmation that she got my email just sent rota's with me not on them.  Next two saturdays are going to be AWKWARD.
No hope of a good reference then.
Been some large moments of tension today, in Georgi's words you could indeed "ping it like an elastic band"
mutual feelings? I am unsure but I often am more paranoid than anyone else

WHERE IS ALL MY MONEY TOO? come back, i miss having new clothes and i need to buy presents dammit!
xxx. peace

and sighh

GOT A TICKET!!!

I officially love Sophie Clarke for being the queen of buying tickets! 

And I've finally responded to Universities. 

Bournemouth = FIRM, Canterbury Christ Church = INSURANCE

Love Life

x

stress stress stress

READING TICKETS!

They go on sale at 6.45. It is currently 5.35. I have an hour and 10 minutes to prepare.

Dear Lord I hope I get one!

Blink 182 and Libertines Confirmed. EEEEE!

AWAY!

The weather is annoying me so much at the moment. It cant decide whether it wants to be really sunny or really rainy. Buy an umbrella or wear a coat I hear you say. But I have naturally curly hair, the absolute bain of my life.  This is ok if i do my hair curly but when i have spent an hour straightening it the last thing i want is to go out looking relatively ok to college then return with a frizzy mess on the top of my head! ahh lol but I spose the only thing I can do is moan about it and I do apologise.

Reading tickets go on sale tomorrow evening and I want one sooo bad! i am so excited about the fact that Blink 182 are possibly playing, they were probably one of the bands that saved me from decending into the pikey-esque of my school.  It will also be such an amazing end to college as most people will probably be there and I can show off my tan after my two fabulous holidays. I love music so much and Reading would probably become one of the best things I've done ith my life relating to music.  So you can probs guess that if I don't get one I will cry lots and lots. And beg the Readin people and anybody with a spare ticket. I have recently been trying to decipher whether I was a gig person or a club. Gig, club, gig, club. So i decided that I am both. I love both so much and I think it is true that you can have some people who never go to either a club or a gig in their life but I guess i'm not picky.

Fleet has become a regular hotspot of Sixth Form students of late.  I was there last night but thursdays are definately the bets days to go.  Pub, Bar, Club is the usual routine and always guarentees a good night. I thankfully didn't drink last night so I was actually able to get up this morning. It has still taken me all day to do stupid history (which yes I should have done on friday) but its still hard and i still need to do some english.  But i do have some photographic evidence of reasons why i havent done work and that is my fat cat Venus who thought it would be good to first of all spread herself across my lap than tried to steal my highlighter cos i was highlighting and not giving her a fuss.  This then progressed to her deciding that the only way to get across to me how she need me to stroke her was by laying herself across my work. I do love her very very much but she is pain some times.


Oh my days, my a-level drama just keeps getting better an better. On friday we went all the way to Salisbury to see what was meant to be an award winning production of Tis Pity She's a Whore.
IT
WAS
TERRRIBLE!
And i don't mean normal amatuer terrible I mean seriously terrible.  So terrible in fact that our teachers were laughing which sort of led to a wave of every one of the 50 students there to giggle for the rest of the performance. There were two extras people who clearly were just put in for the sake of it and they only had one line each at the end of the play. (hense blog title)
Extra 1: Away... AWAY!
Extra 2: oh err... AWAYYYY!!
At this point Dawn ( who was next to me) snorted rather loudly meaning i had to bite down very hard on the programme that I was holding. all in all a splendidly gigglesome night accompanied by the shockingly shit performers who were supposedly Drama Degree graduates.

I also stood up for a really good mate on friday (who I can probably never tell due to the harshness of what was being said) but I hope they would appreciate it because i looked like an idiot in the process. Hense the response "don't stand up for them Tash, it makes you look like a twat!"

I would just like to say a big thank you to Miss Dawn Cottrel for being fabulous and listening to me on our long coach journey on friday. I of course listened in return but my lips are sealed you nosey people so no i shall not tell you! I had one of the funniest moments ever last night which a few people may appreciate (especially a certain Sophie Clarke). A certain guy who regularly thinks it ok to come dance with or touch a girl who is not interested (again a certain Miss Clarke)  was put in his place last night, not by witty words or a punch in the face but just by my good friend Becka screaming in his face.  I wish I had a camera at the time because the shock imbedded on his face was momentous. Thank you.

I promised myself, after 3 nights of being out late in a row, I will be in bed by 10.  I am hoping to stick to this so good night, farewell, I shall speak to you soon.
Loove xxxxxxx

Try a Little Tenderness

Happy Kiss an Asian Day!! - i know i kissed mine, love you China x

Well hello ladies and gentlemen. Good evening and good night. This may be a bundle of everything so keep up please :)

blogs have actually become so popular recently, seems like every man and his mother has one at college lol but of course mine is the best (and maybe sophie's). Point is that its going to get to the point where, like facebook you have to think about what you say. At the moment, like when i talk, I don't even think about what i'm doing I just write as a think. sometimes this is goood, sometimes this is not so good but you get what I mean. I have already had to protect a blog of a friend which was being laughed at and thats just harsh. Lost my point now. oh well.

Went to Portsmouth University on Saturday and it was a massive disappointment, the city was a bit like an oversized version of alderhot with the only good part being the sea, which through all the wind and rain didnt look too appealing. Managed to see Nathann, who was in my history class last year and most importantly spiderman at my birthday and keep him company. Even though he got attacked at the station, which was a ovely welcome to the city i'm sure. We shared many unimpressed stories later on. I also saw Lottie and her boyf Dave who i managed to sit next to in the Journalism talk and share giggles with. The actual course was so vaguely spoken about and the work shown could have been improved by a 10 year old i honestly thought it was a joke. When the crazy haired woman asked if we had any questions I was straight in there, but the way she responded to them it was almost as if I shouldn't have been allowed to ask such questions. They have a tv studio but dont use because 'they dont see the relevance of journalism in TV..' I mean what the buggering hell are they talking about. 

This disappointment has now keft me in a large stress as Portsmouth was going to be my insurance choice behind Bournemouth. My only option now is Canterbury, which I have never been to and dont know what they offer so I have just had to email the lead tutor for it and begged for them to tell me everythign and maybe let me visit outside of an open day. BUT bournemouth is the most important thing and I am cracking down and conentrating on english, history and media and I hope I get the best possible marks. If not.. well I dont even want to think about it.

College is fun, hustings are over now so we have no more people to shout at. Results are tomorrow therefore i'm sure we'll get one last chance to cheer on RICHARD ACTON aka boy in a suit. I hope he gets president, no one else seemed up for it tbh.

ooh! what is annoying me at the moment so much is how people you dont even know, who dont even know you, think its ok to just give you EVILS. to just stop, look you up and down then look away. WHAT IS THAT. and i spose everyone has experienced this, and everyone has probably done it but there is one girl who as i told Nathan on saturday "I know of," (not insinuating any slaggy activities...) has now decided to pop up everywhere and gimme a good stare. she is part of the group who think they're popular, but because we are not part of an american high school drama they are not. I'm gonna stop now cos getting carried away and talking about the divides and cross overs in college gets far too complicated. but yea, the impression I get is that this person thinks they are better than everyone else and for some reason specifically me. I am willing to let her try and change my mind. if she wants to stop STARING! or i may go all ash manor on her arse... whatever that means.. a pikey beating maybe...

Another rant is not just aimed at one person. I'm just fed up of there being different people I know that i just can't read. one minute your my best friend then its like I don't know you. so weird. this could definately go back to group divides but there is no point. please just be real and honest? thanks. 

Another thing I will touch on but not in too much detail is that of the interview I had last week.  I did get the job. I am over the MOON. but it is taking me forever to write the letter to my current manager about resigning. so once thats done it will be easier. hello yummy clothes :D

Tomorrow I have agreed to take part in Georgie's photoshoot for her photography, it involves me being painted white and aparently she wants to go for a look of 'sophistication with dirty habits'...

well we shall see, i'll probs just end up getting so embarrassed I just stand there and laugh like a loon on loon pills. :)

right i need my bed. may do another blog tomorrow as I havent said everything in this one but i definitely didnt want to bore you.  this had been slightly boring tbh. i'm sorry.

loove. peace. kisses. hugs.

p.s. love to all the iceland peeps who waited about 10 hours for their plane. don't let the volcano get you please. I dont think I could cope in english without Ash to get answers off, Alex to annoy in media and just Charlie in general. (and anyone else whos on it i dont know about)

p.p.s i love you sam. hehe its almost your birthday! you think you've rumbled me but you haaven't xxx

speechless

Right time to crack on, this blog may be lengthy due to the fact i have abandoned it for agess.
I shall firts of all refer to last one!!
Singing at the party was soo good and I had so much fun. In the day on saturday I had to come home early from work due to almost passing out and feeling bloody awful. But then I had 4 hours in bed and managed to get up to get ready. I wore my mothers dress from the 80's which I love soo much its gorge, black and gold with deep V at the back, yum yum yum. shame I look peaky and ill in most of the photos.
Me and the boys got to practise before and we named ourselves The Excuses, because we were full of excuses; we had only met a couple of times and had one practice, and i was ill.

This was us before we went on, Matt, Chris, Dickie and mee. We only got through half our set, so about 7 songs as my voice gave out and just disappeared but they were quite good :) and then we came back on after i had strepsilled it up and had used my throat spray and did MR Brightside and Johnny B Good.
The most important thing was that Dee and Mark had a fabulous time and they've even said they'll have a summer party just so we can play then.

Another thing to carry on from last blog was the matter of me and Sam's 3 years :) it was lovely. We went out for a meal to Zizzi in Farnham and were all sophisticated with wine and fancy food. was glorious. We both said how amazing it was that even after 3 amazing years you can still connect with that person soo much and even discover new things. We literally could have sat and talked all night it was brilliant. I love him soo much :) and it was as if I fell in love with him all over again. CHEESE i know but totally love love love him. We now wanna live a life of luxury now hehe and go out more :) so we're going to pizza express on friday which should be tree romantic :D

THIS WEEK
Hustings is on at the moment at college, which is the process of the election of our Student Association and the candidates have to stand up and do a speech to the college in cafe d. I did it last year (didnt win) but it was an experience I will never forget. I was part of the rare few who was not booed and actually relaxed a little bit once I got going. I was running for publications officer (relating to my love for journalism and writing) and got soo into it. I even spent 2 days making a skirt out of magazines which proved effective and everyone loved it. Was quite simple but such genius I am proud of and i shall take its design to the grave :D as you can see it was bloody amazing :D From last year we have adopted the shouting and heckling that last years 2nd years adopted but it seems that this year it has gone BRUTAL! with probably double the amount of people watching, and double the amount of people screaming abuse it looks so scary. the top shouts are things such as STRIP, SING and insults aimed at current SA memeber, some extremely harsh lol my friend chris even brought in these party cazoo things for us today, it was entertaining :) lol every time one girl tried to speak, 3 of us would just blow on our whistles and you couldnt hear anything :D soo mean but soo fun. I'm gonna try and be nicer for the rest of the week until its the time for the wannabe presidents to do their speeches.

I have a job interview this week, wont say where or when but i'm excited and nervous and WANT IT SOO BAD. the clothes are lush, after talking to some of the girls who work there already I have been told I dont need to be too formal for my interview just stylish so i have all my fav clothes laid out on my bed atm and hopefully borrowing a blazer from Sammie so hopefully it will be ok. ahh SCARY. i want it so badd!

Just realised how chunky I look in that photo of me at Hustings, I have defo lost weight and need to crack on with pilates. I do keep saying i will do it tomorrow, which i need to STOP doing! just do it and stop being lazy. sorted. I have discovered that I cannot actually take compliments, whether boyf, friend or family i'm always like no or SHUT UP.. i say that alot. haha I respond to kindness with meanness which often results in no more compliments, but i do appreciate it just internally I cant actually show that I do appreciate it. my biggest fear is becoming a big headed idiot. so i will do everything i can to avoid that, probs too much to avoid it. So for the future i say THANK YOU to everyone who says nice things about me and if i respond in an angry way i actually am grateful.

It was Dawn's birthday on sunday, and this week had been and shall be fun due to her lovely and tasty birthday meal last night at Chiquitos. I discovered I cant actually say Nachos or Tacos properly as i say Taacos and Naachos not like an american which you're supposed to. then thursday we are going Jaxx to dance and party :) i cant wait, gonna try and not drink too much alcohol as it often makes me ILL. But i'm excited. So everyone in and around fleet whos betwen ages of 18 and 20 (we dont want no oldies) make your way out pleaseee :) will be good times. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAWN! she got a really nice tattoo of a swallow with her sisters name and ever since it has had me considering a tattoo or tattoos I may get. I am not going to get one until I am at uni as i want to live a little bit before I get one and then the plan is to find a design, carry it with me for about 6 months, look at it everyday and then if i still like it, get it done :)
Back to Dawn's birthday - that is a picture of the card which Cherise made for her. You may be wondering why we are outside Asda but it is because Dawn works there and it is definitely funny seeing all you mateys looking like asda workers, wishing you a happy birthday :D

the reason for title of this blog is my total love for LAdy Gaga and her song Speechless which is AMAZING and makes me soo happy and I could listen and sing to it ALL day :) love love love her.

Night all
xxx
p.s. 90210 amazing tonight!!

Pinch, Punch First of the Month

i have neglected my blog writing duties and i must say i have missed it :)
at this moment in time i am in bed with a lemsip, a sore throat and a runny nose. looking HIGHLY unattractive i might add but have POTC on and Orlando Bloom to keep me company is making everything a little bit better. he truelly is a magnificent man :) yummm.
coursework is now out of my hair (apart from drama, but none of my unis care about that so i dont) i feel like a weight has totally been lifted from my shoulders and i am soo much happier.

i have a gig on saturday :) i am singing at Mark and Dee's combined 18th and 50th with their cousins who i sung with before. the songs we're doing are all covers and they are:
KT Tunstall - Black Horse and Cherry Tree
Jet - Are you gonna be my girl?
Lynard Skynard – Sweet Home Alabama
Guns n Roses - Sweet Child of Mine??
Foo Fighters – The Pretender
Bryan Adams - Summer of 69
Killers - When you were Young
We Are Scientists - Lousy Reputation??
Black Sabbath - Paranoid
Chuck Berry - Johnny B Good
Feeder - Buck Rogers
Jimi Hendrix - Little Wing
Incubus - Love Hurts
Gossip - Standing in the Way of Control
The Killers - Mr Brightside

and they're exciting to do because everyone will know them :)and will hopefully enjoy it :) i am proper nervous though due to the larger crowd and I will know quite a few people so will have to impress. I just hope i dont turn out to be a boring front-woman lol i defo need to drink about 10 red bulls then i'll be ready to be super hyper and maybe match up to other amazing female singers who i love such as Paloma Faith, Beth Ditto and Hayley Williams lol. all of whom are like my singing idols but i will never b as good as any of them but i spose i can always hope for a miracle.

and i dnoo what to wear!!! its a formal do so guys in suits and girls in dresses but WHAT DRESS?? ahh lol but alas i have no available money to spend on clothes due to holiday and having to save money.

It is mine and Sam's 3 year anniversary next week and i'm so excited. I know its such a long length of time but it just doesnt seem that long what so ever. I love him so much and wouldnt change anything. He's pretty damn perfect tbh and thats the way i like him :)he probs gets me more than I get myself and in the past three years has made me into a better person. so Sam i love love love love love love YOU!
and just to make everyone have a giggle heres a photo of me and Sam at the end of year 10. we'd probably been together for 4 and a bit months and how cute are we!!
love you all xxxx