Safe

I had a realisation about someone at the weeked. I realised that they were one of the most important things in my life. After not seeing them for over a month its safe to say I was worried about it. But nothing had changed, things had got better infact. Leeds is such a beautiful city. Bloody freezing but beautiful. Its a lot like London actually just on a smaller scale but with equally amazing shops which caused me to spend a bit too much. American Aparrell and Urban Outfitters being my main downfall. Seeing Stephy and Ellen for some girly shopping was lovely.
But my first and only reson for the 5 and half hours on the train from Bournemouth was of course Charlie. I can't even describe the enormous rush of feelings and emotions when I turned round and saw him at the station. Yes is soppy but actually seeing that person you havent seen in months in the flesh, seeing them grinning at you, its amazing. I think I was even speechless. It was just so surreal.
Time seemed to go past too quickly. I could feel myself just treasuring every second and as I watched them pass me I would play them back in my mind. Storing them in the place where your deepest memories go. Whether it was at the most initmate of moments or just being sung to by my silly boyfriend.
Ridiculously after just three days I picked up a slight northern twinge to my Surrey accent but I spose when you're with someone 24/7 that will happen.
So many moments were just perfect, the ones you can always look back on and the ones I always will. Being sung to for hours on end, talking into the early hours then being completely stunned when you see its half 3, the best hair wash ever, OCD incidents involving curtains and sheets, cute cute phonecalls with younger siblings and grandparents, too many similarities to Ken from Toy Story and of course the high fives. I had a v. v. good time. Hazzaar...
Sunday was the hardest goodbye I have ever had to do in my life. Didn't want to let go of the last hug and managed to get through the ticket barrier before bursting into tears. Like so many other moments in my life another rom com momentoccured. I told myself I would not look back. But stopping short of the stairs I looked back to see Charlie dong the same. With a slight wave and another torrent of tears I lugged me and my stuff sadly onto the train.
The woman next to me on the train offered me a tissue and gave me a sympathetic look. What a complete idiot I must have looked. Ha.
First night home, even though I was soo tired it was so hard to sleep. But in uni the next day I honestly could not stop smiling. And still I'm on such a high from the weekend.
Christmas needs to come quicker, I wish I could see him sooner but I know its not possible :(
I love you.

BIRTHDAY IN EXACTLY 2 WEEEKS!!!!!!!!
Housemates are up to something. I can feel it. haha.

xxxx