Now That We Found Love

Toy Story 3 is amazing. I cried a lot and it was as good maybe better than the original two. Its all about Andy growing up and its when you finally see him drive off to college at the end that the tears really start coming.

Popped out into Camberley after with Dawn, Sophie, Cherise, Bassil and Tom and our goal was to get Tom very drunk. It worked as we managed to get him to do a few shots. Honestly the funniest thing ever. Also when Dawn had a laughing fit, threw her head back to laugh but then smacked it on the wall behind. First time I have honestly and properly laughed in a number of days.

I'm not gonna lie driving to and being in Camberley was a struggle. Everything there is you. I had to stop myself constantly from going "Oh we did that there..." "Thats where..." "Funniest thing happened there..." because it would have driven the girls insane but also would have made me upset myself haha.
Then seeing you in Spoons I actually froze on the spot and realised that if I could have at that point I would have ran out of there and driven home. But after being told to 'man up' by my friends I stayed even if I did feel slightly faint. Because of that I then avoided you and it got to the point where it was too late for me to approach. I hate that you know when you see someone you slightly know or know it will be awkward and its up to you to take the first move but then you put it off until its too late. Well I did that and I honestly thgouht that i had ruined everything but then after an hour you proved to be less of a pussy than me and came and spoke to me.
Every nervous feeling I had disappeared thanks to the way you imprisoned me in a hug that lasted for what seemed like a million years.

It was awkward but I couldnt have asked for a more perfect awkward moment. 

I didnt say everything I wanted to but neither did you so we're even on that. I managed to not start blubbing which was surprising as I was still fragile after how much I cried in the cinema.You teasing me probably helped lighten the mood and even when we realised that there was about 20 people staring at us we could laugh about it. Even if you did threaten to hit a certain person who was throwing looks haha.
How I felt and have always felt hasn't changed, probably won't ever change, but I just went head over heart, one of the hardest things I've ever had to do.

Regret. You can't change what you've done so in one sense regret is pointless. But in another sense regret highlights how much you care about that one thing. I have been feeling a lot of regret and it hurts. Life is full of regrets but every choice you makes gets you closer to the future parts of your life, in this case mine is to do with the end of summer and university. Too many hard feelings at the moment, so this is not gonna be easy, even though I never thought it would be.

I was demanded by two drunken gals and an asian to go the Kebab van after, another part of camberley which will always remind me of an interesting trip back from the cinema. :)
Also loved how Dawn and Sophie got chatted up as they were buying their chips.

All my love x