Snow has been and gone in Bournemouth but with it came a sense of excitement about the approaching Christmas holidays. Although the rain has now washed it away I am praying that it will return for christmas and new year because I honestly can't think of anything more magical.
I've been seriously stressed recently and after it led me to do some pretty stupid things where I should have just kept my mouth shut, I decided to tackle it. For weeks my incredible boyfriend has had to put up with me stressing out because I hadn't wanted to tell my parents. But finally I told them. Everything.
I realised there is no point trying to protect them or not wanting them to worry. They are there to look after you. Even if you are 19 and no longer a child, you're still branching out for the first time so will need some guidance.
My parents are wonderful and didnt get annoyed like I thought they might but just supported me.
The stupid things I would like to apologise for.
I apologised almost straight away for the first and everything will be ok, I honestly never meant to hurt her feelings, I was just being pathetic. Bless her because she is just far too nice she told me it was all ok once I had apologised. But I still feel like I should give her some choccies or something. I'm not a horrible person I've just had some pretty dark days in the last couple of weeks and the littlest thing has made me lose it. Not a good enough excuse to be a bitch though. Sorry.
The second thing I apologise for, I handled it badly. Maybe I do need to grow up. And if theres a more perfect place to do that its living away from home and having to fend for yourself.
Putting the deposit down on our house for next year very very soon! 3 double bedrooms, 20 mins from uni and a house with my laavly girls Gemma and Stacey. I can't wait. You two have become my best friends and I love you for it. We've had two of our birthdays in Bournemouth so far - Jungle night for me and Granny night for Gemma - now we just have Stacey's night out before we leave for xmas and if its half as good as the others I know it will be amazing. BAMMJ for life.
Christmas means presents and I LOVE buying presents for people. I'm making a special trip to Southampton on thursday to purchase some things for the boyfriend. Hehehe. The boyfriend, who I would like to thank for being so incredible. Whether your quoting films to me or singing to your club classics. You always make me smile. I can't wait to spend Christmas and New Years with you. I love you.
A lot of the time at uni I get this look from my friends - mainly Rosie and Alex on a monday. Its like a half smile, tilt of the head and slightly raised eyebrows. A look which overall says "N'awwww". This look always follows when ever I mention the boyfriend. Their comments of how much I clearly care about him are always then followed but a slight blushing on my part. To all those with a boyf/girlf watch out for this look. I know I have given it myself, but of course when someone is such a big a part of your life you're gonna talk about them a lot.
Plans for next summer are starting to take shape. I don't know what country. I don't know when it will be. But I know who I am going to be spending it with. That is what matters to me the most.
12 days until I'm home for Christmas. 14 days until I see Charlie. I can't wait. xxx
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